Dye Hard

I'm dying my hair this week. Because a change is always good. Except when it's bad. But hair change is always good. Except when it's bad. I'll keep you posted.

Some sort of dark red, I think.

I'm trying to keep the length I've got going on lately. Even though I feel like short hair is more stylish in general, I like the variety that long hair affords. New color will hopefully keep me excited enough to fight the urge to chop everything off. I might cut bangs again, though. Because the bangs I was growing out have finally gotten long enough to not be a nuisance anymore and I apparently hate myself.

Trevor's little brother got married on Saturday, and my new sister-in-law-in-law (I believe that's the correct title) is a hair stylist, so she will be assisting me. (Side note: check out some of the wedding documentation on Kenna's blog; which I mostly share because as a main planner/implementer of this short-notice wedding, I'm rather proud of what we got put together).

I feel like I should be blogging about more important things than hair, but then again, hair is probably more interesting to most people than me blabbing on about the existential crisis that is my life, etc. Not to mention much easier to put up a quick post about.

Songalong

I decided I'd admit it: I am not an intellectual.
I'm tired of being clever. Everybody's clever these days.
You're a few years overdue.
It wears me out.

I could be more clever.

Updateroo

Winston on the day we gave him away :(

• Still working out a lot. Currently drenched in sweat from hot yoga. And really not sure why I suddenly like this stuff so much. I was never ever into physical activities. But I guess it's good for me.
• Winston is no longer a part of our family. He was just too big and active of a dog for our house. And we couldn't figure out a way to supervise him as much as he needed or any good way of enclosing him somewhere during the day where he wouldn't be able to chew cords and jump on Trevor and it caused one too many problems. He has a new family now where he's hopefully enjoying more space and living a good life. I love him and it makes me really sad that my puppy is gone, but it's for the best. We were idiots for getting a dog without knowing anything about him. Noob mistake. I feel like a total failure when I think about Winston pup. I tried so hard for the four months we had him, but I just didn't have the time and space for him. Super depressing. We'll get a smaller and less active dog next time. Probably not until after we move (dogs make moving harder). I definitely want one again, but we were not ready this last time.
• Trevor will be filming a sitcom pilot in LA next week. It's fun to dream about what could happen if the show gets picked up and takes off (what will I wear to the third season premier party?), but I know that very few TV pilots actually get made into shows and very few TV shows last very long, so let's not think too far ahead. The immediately exciting thing is that Trevor will be getting some good experience in the industry he hopes to make a career of.
• I'm almost done reading Brigham Young: Pioneer Prophet, and it is pretty good. Not Joseph Smith: Rough Stone Rolling good, but still something I can't put down. I've been a little obsessed with Mormon history lately. Mormon history is my history. A lot of my ancestors are good old-fashioned Mormon pioneer polygamist sorts. And I, of course, grew up very into Mormonism as my faith. I only ever read the official church histories growing up, though, and it's been utterly fascinating to put the stories I've known my whole life into the greater historical context and think about them academically rather than spiritually. 

Exercise

Note: I wrote this post when I was very sick last Wednesday and apparently never hit post. It is not very well-written, which I will blame on being very sick, but I'm not editing now because I'm tired. Deal with it.

I had no New Year's Resolutions having to do with my health this year, but my ride to work did, so I ended up getting a gym pass with her and have been going to the gym for an hour before work three or four days a week for the last month. I would never have done it if it weren't for the friend I'm going with, but it does feel pretty good (except the getting up early part). We do a lot of different stuff at the gym, which I guess is good so we're not getting bored and we're constantly challenging our bodies with different routines. Some days are straight cardio on the treadmill or stair machine or elliptical or cycle; some days are straight weight machines focusing on arms or legs or abs or whatever on any given day; some days are a mix of cardio and strength stuff. I've discovered I have really weak arms. Arm days are always the sorest for me later. The rest of me's in pretty decent shape, but there's always more strength and endurance and flexibility to work on.

Having a small apartment and a big dog means I spend a lot more time outdoors than I would usually during the winter. I take him outside for walks and fetch for at least an hour every day. It's great bonding time for me and Winston and even with the cold it's great to be outside so much. And of course, it's even more exercise for me.

I've spent so little time online lately. I never know what's on the frontpage of reddit anymore. I only check facebook maybe once a day. I only check the blogs I follow about once a week. I'm still a nerd more than a jock, though, I promise.

I have a hard time spelling exercise. There are tons of ways to spell it that make sense to me. Exersize, Excersise, Excersize, Exercize, etc.

Or maybe I'll never write again

I'm never on a computer outside of work these days. We got a kindle for Christmas and it's all the internet I need, but it's a huge pain to write on. I'm writing on it now, so I'm going to stop. Because, you know, huge pain.

New Year's Resolution

I'm going to write more this year. But I'll mostly write short pointless things.

Learned in 2012 - Farting

I've reached the point in my life where the embarrassment of farting in front of other people is outweighed by the discomfort of holding in a fart. I think through the year; various times passerby in the grocery store or coworkers have heard me fart and I only think "meh, better out than in," rather than being filled with overwhelming shame I would have in years past. I like to think this is me being more comfortable/confident with myself, but it's probably just an indication that I'm getting grosser as the years go on. As a note, I still try to avoid having other people hear/smell my farts, when possible. I do recognize that there is a tinge of rudeness to farting in front of others. However, I'm not going to go to great lengths to avoid it. Just stepping aside a bit is good enough, I think.

Learned in 2012 - Reading

In 2012, I learned to read again. I always loved reading, but somewhere in my college years, I stopped reading more than two or three books a year. In 2012, I read 15 books. A lot of that can probably be attributed to getting a Nook toward the end of last year. I've talked about this before, but it makes significantly easier to obtain and read new books when it's electronic.

I've also discovered a huge love of non-fiction. I'm pretty sure I've read more non-fiction books this year than ever before in my life unless you count DK Eyewitness books as a kid. I love learning things; every little piece of knowledge in some way or other leads to better understanding of the world around us. And I'm definitely the sort of person who craves understanding. I've talked about many of the books I've read this year in this blog, but we're just going to do a recap. Because I still have half-an-hour left of my lunch break and nothing else to do:

• A Song of Ice and Fire Series by George R.R. Martin - I read four of these books this year after watching and loving the first season of Game of Thrones (which is based on these books). I feel like fantasy novels are pretty hit and miss and I don't read them often because I don't know how to tell if they're going to be good or not. I loved these books, though. There is tons of political intrigue to get through the battles and other (to me) boring stuff. And George R.R. Martin is very good at surprising his readers with plot twists and character reveals and unexpected actions, which makes these a very compelling read.
• Gasping for Airtime: Two Years in the Trenches of Saturday Night Live By Jay Mohr - I read this while we were writing/producing/performing our first sketch shows and because I am really bad about over-researching everything, I spent a lot of time reading about sketch comedy. I found Jay Mohr's story very entertaining and very human; this book was enjoyable outside of filling a research role. And, of course, despite all of the crap he had to deal with being a part of the world, it was also fun to fantasize about working with a bunch of hilarious, creative people to produce something for the world to see (and probably think is stupid, but nonetheless...).
• Live from New York: An Uncensored History of Saturday Night Live by Tom Shales - See Gasping for Airtime.
• Outliers: The Story of Success by Malcolm Gladwell - You've probably heard this book raved about by someone you know. It feels like it comes up a lot in conversation with all sorts of people. Because it's one of those books that changes how you think about everything. The basic premise of the book is that people who are successful for often surprising reasons. Kind of like Guns, Germs, and Steel, but with modern individuals instead of nations. It's written more as a collection of essays covering different areas of success/failure in our world. The chapter on why plane crashes happen was probably my favorite. Super interesting. Highly recommended.
• Hollywood Babylon by Kenneth Anger - By far the trashiest reading I did this year. It was a book lying out at Trevor's grandmother's house when we went to visit her back in April and I read in in two days while chilling at her house. The book barely qualifies as non-fiction, tons of the stories in it are backed by absolutely no research, but they were fun nonetheless. Just to look through all of the pictures of old silent movie stars made this book worthwhile to me. I suppose I learned a little bit about censorship laws in old Hollywood and that sort of thing, but the book is really just trashy celebrity stories, only slightly classier since the celebrities are from the Golden Age or whatever.
• The Devil in the White City: Muder, Magic, and Madness at the Fair that Changed America by Erik Larson - Going back to my over-research tendencies, I read this back when we were pretty certain we were moving to Chicago (still a possibility, but LA is more likely). The book covers the 1893 World Fair in Chicago in parallel with the story of the Chicago-based serial killer H.H. Holmes. It reads almost like fiction, I found myself constantly wanting to know what happens next.
• City of the Century: The Epic of Chicago and the Making of America by Donald L. Miller - This book was sited quite a bit in The Devil in the White City, and I needed to know more. This book gives a broader history in a more academic format of 19th century Chicago (and earlier, but it's the 19th century stuff that's the best). Apparently I am really into Industrial Revolution/Progressive Era America. And Chicago was, in a lot of ways, the center of all of that. I also learned way more about architecture than I ever expected to and it wasn't nearly as boring as I've always thought that subject was. And why hasn't there ever been a movie made about the Haymarket Riot? Great story that I had never heard before.
• Joseph Smith: Rough Stone Rolling by Richard L. Bushman - Growing up the star Mormon seminary student that I was, I always felt that I knew Joseph Smith's story well, but I learned a lot from this book. I'd only really learned anything from church sources, which focuses on very different things than a historical biography. I was interested in this book in particular because it is written by an active Mormon believer, but he doesn't shy away at all from the more contentious issues in the life of Joseph Smith. The reviews on Amazon had a bunch of people who were like "Burn it! It's too harsh on The Holy Prophet!" and a bunch of people who were like "Burn it! It's thinly-veiled missionary Mormon propaganda!" So I figured it's pretty middle-ground. I could get into a lengthy Mormonism discussion here, but I won't.
• Imagine Life with a Well-Behaved Dog: A 3-Step Positive Dog-Training Program by Julie A. Bjelland - This books was a little bit useless. I read it for obvious reasons. I got a puppy and then realized that it's one of the hardest things I've ever done. The book was okay. I think Winston's too naturally aggressive to use an almost completely reward-based system like the one laid out in this book. The techniques she laid out helped a lot with training tricks, but were pretty worthless when it comes to correcting bad behavior (at least in Winston's case). Probably the most important thing I got out of this book was just a better understanding of dog psychology and what they really need from humans in terms of consistency and exercise and all that.
• Escape from Camp 14: One Man's Remarkable Odyssey from North Korea to Freedom in the West by Blaine Harden - I find North Korea endlessly fascinating. Mostly because the mindset of people there is so utterly foreign to my modern Western brain. I read this after Trapper recommenced it, and I'm just going to link to his review because I'm lazy.
• Extraordinary Popular Delusions and the Madness of Crowds by Charles MacKay - I'm glad I read this, but it was kind of dull reading. It was published in 1841 and you can tell in the language and approach to history (for example, there is no delving into psychology whatsoever, which seems odd to the modern person). The chapters at the beginning about financial bubbles are super interesting, particularly since they have easily recognized modern parallels. The alchemy chapters almost made me stop reading the book. It's interesting at first but then you realize it keeps going for 120 or so pages of essentially the same story over and over. But then there were more fun topics at the end, like the Crusades and Witch Mania. Overall interesting stuff, but I wanted more analysis with the stories.
• Inside Scientology: The Story of America's Most Secretive Religion by Janet Reitman - I'm technically not finished with this book, but I will be by the end of the year. I really have no connection to Scientology at all, but that doesn't mean it isn't fascinating stuff. It's been a good exercise in relating to people. It's really easy to see Scientology as this obviously made-up, completely corrupt "religion", but if I push myself a little, I can see where Scientology's followers and leaders are coming from (I could get into a lengthy Mormonism discussion here, but I won't).

And now a question for you dear readers: what should I read in 2013?

Learned in 2012

I was going to rip off my sister Marsha's post about things she's learned in 2012, but once I started writing I knew there were too many things for me to ever feel like it was a completed post and it would never get posted. So the plan is for the rest of the year, I'll cover a few topics in their own posts. This will also help add to my total number of posts for the year, since it looks like this is going to be my lowest ever since I started blogging eight years ago. Not that that matters at all. And yet I keep thinking about it, so maybe it does.

Anyway, 2012 has been an eventful year and I look forward to thinking about maybe posting about the ways I've learned and grown this year.

When I was younger, I always figured you reach some sort of "adult" point in life where you stop learning and growing and life is stable and you don't wonder what the next year will bring because it will be roughly the same as the last. So far haven't hit that. I'm beginning to think it's a completely imagined concept. I've had plenty of life changes lately and don't see the rate of change (as modeled by a derivative function?) changing much.

Health Insurance...I think I'll pass?

I turned 26 this year which means I'm no longer covered by my parent's health insurance. It's open enrollment time for benefits at work, so it's time sign up and get some insurance to cover myself like a big girl.

Tell me if I'm being an idiot, but I don't think I'm going to do it. The insurance rates are $260/mo for just me and $514/mo if I wanted to cover me and Trevor. Which is way more than I can imagine ever spending on health care. In the last five years, I doubt our household hasn't accrued more than $400/yr in health expenses.* We're fairly healthy and fairly safe. The odds of the health insurance plan paying off are pretty low it seems.

Now, I know, insurance isn't designed to pay itself off every time (or insurance companies wouldn't even be in business); it's there to protect you in case of surprise accident or illness. Maybe I'm dumb and young and think I'm invincible, but it almost feels like health insurance is a scam preying upon people's fear of medical emergency. What are really the odds of us having something happen this year that leads to expenses of more than $6,168 (the amount we'd be paying for coverage for both of us)?

The most likely "medical emergency" I could see us running into is if I got pregnant. Oh, but wait, the plan my work is offering has a $8,000 maternity deductible before they start covering anything pregnancy-related. So pregnancy would be super expensive anyway.

I don't know. It seems worth it to take my chances and just pay out of pocket if anything comes up. Health expenses can be paid out of savings if need be and I'll be able to save more if I'm not paying for insurance. Then if we don't have medical expenses come up, it's money saved instead of money thrown away.

Again, tell me if I'm being an idiot.

*Human health expenses, at least. Veterinarian bills are a completely different story. There's some some sort of dog or cat medical emergency probably twice a year, not to mention vaccines and spay/neuter costs. Pet health insurance would pay itself off in our household.